there are a lot of things I can admit about myself:
i dont really think im beautiful, at least not most of the time.
im constantly scared that Im destined to waist all my potential.
i procrastinate like a motherfucker.
my body image is not that great.
i am envious of a lot of other people.
im lazy.
im awkward.
i often times feel inadequate.
im afraid Im gonna go to hell.
im afraid people dont like me.
im a push over.
and ive never been kissed.

is it courageous that I can admit these things, even if only to myself most of the time. I don't really know, but I'd kinda like to hope so.
Of all these things, the one thing that bothers me the most is that I although I may be able to admit them, I don't really have the courage to change them. I try, I get "motivated", but nothing comes into fruition. It took me like forever just to write this blog. I want to change, but...

9:28pm aka My Glee Tribute

So Glee premieres in about 14 minutes and I am mucho excited. I love that show...it warms the heart. Plus I am definitely going to participate in a Glee flash mob some time during my life. Plus I really love that Arty...the wheel chair guy aka the new Jimmy is actually Kevin McHale former member of NLT...one of my favorite boy bands. Plus we were born on the same day, so that make him awesome by association. Well I'm gonna go wait it out for the show to start. I wonder whats with the premiere time.




P.S I really enjoy that Glee flash mob...makes my insides smile...plus i like how they are supposed to be like the characters.

....so here you go

This is my first article for Prototype Magazine...It was an interesting process writing...and I still can't/don't consider myself a journalist...but here you go:

Many months, countless heated debates, and a thousand bill pages later, Obama and the Democratic Party finally managed to pass health care reform. In general, this new law means health care and extended coverage for the American people, but what does it mean specifically for the average American woman.

It is no secret that, in the United States, our health care system was once working more against us than for us. Although this was common information, many American women weren’t and still aren’t aware of the gender politics that occurred in the health care system.

Women all across the country experience hiked up premiums, minimal health coverage, and have to deal with the yearly growing list of preexisting conditions that prevent them from receiving the care they need because insurance companies theorized that it’s too expensive to cover us. Because of our frivolous concerns such as breast cancer prevention, adequate prenatal care, menopause management, and sexual health, companies believe that women will over-utilize health care services, and therefore economically inflate the health care system more than men.

That debatable theory causes insurance companies to charge a mother who had a cesarean section, higher premiums than men who are morbidly obese, diabetics, or smokers. This blatant discrimination has left many American women, of all demographics, without healthcare which is not only dangerous to them but entire families. The absence of health care for women generally translates into the lack of health care for an entire family, and can turn into a cycle of uninsured unhealthy people.

With the passing of the health care bill, women have a renewed chance to manage their health and livelihood apart from their finances, and social standing. Health care reform means that the young single mother who doesn’t qualify for Medicaid has access to health coverage for her child through the Children’s Health Insurance Program (CHIP), and significantly low cost insurance for herself in the coming years. For collegiate women and the unemployed college grad, it insures they can stay on their parents insurance while they focus on school and their career until the age of 26.

Pregnant women no longer have to worry that forgoing natural births, having epidurals, or motherhood in general will increase their insurance premiums. Women with sick children no longer have to be plagued with worry about how they will pay for their children’s treatment because effective immediately no sick child can be refused health care. Women who suffered through the terrors of domestic violence no longer have to go uninsured because their physical and mental scars are labeled as self-inflicted medical conditions.

In short, the passing of this historic health care reform symbolizes the beginning of the abolition of “gender rating”. It means simply in the words of speaker of the house Nancy Pelosi, that “being a woman will no longer be a preexisting medical condition.”
Contributor: Marcella D. Camara

http://prototypemagazine.ning.com/

Grandad, The Itis, and The Double Down.

Did KFC personally consult Grandad and Uncle Rukus when they created this sandwich. I feel like I am prone to a heart attack just by looking at this thing. Apparently people are really pissed at KFC for creating the Double Down, a sandwich containing 2 strips of bacon, Monterrey Jack cheese, and spicy sauce, all sandwiched between two pieces of chicken. A I has over 1000 calories...1500 I believe. I say: don't be pissed...just don't eat it. But they will, and they'll get fat...and die.

But seriously though this thing is vastly unhealthy, and I don't recommend consuming one on a regular basis...but trust me although it doest really look appealing... I'm gonna try one at least once...hopefully I don't get hooked...and die.

In conclusion I recommend that KFC pull a Robert Freeman real quick and put some bed in their restaurants because there's gonna be a whole lot of sleepy people around after they try the Double Down.







P.s I couldn't find the vid where the actually explain the itis...that part is hilarious.
P.S.S: Boondocks comes back in May!....

This is why I blog.

because when you blog...you happen upon other peoples blogs. And thus you find amazing tid bits of info and videos that make your insides smile. Today my insides smiled because of: ThoseGirls....ThoseGirlsRWild. Those girls being Shannon T. Boodram and Andrea Lewis (yes that Andrea Lewis...Hazel Aden of Degrassi).

Apparently Andrea and Shannon or Shandrea are besties and they started this website/blog about their daily ruminations, and issues that concern women and society in general. I stumbled across their blog when I somehow found their Nicki Minaj tribute video, which was freakin' hilarious. After that I was hooked, and now I frequent TGAW(yes we are on that acronym basis) quite frequently. Any who I really enjoy their quirkiness and insight...they just seem so genuine.
Just so ya know this makes #12 on my bucket list: Meet ThoseGirls and be in a Skit for TGAW.

P.S thanks Andrea for holding it down for the black girls on Degrassi...love that show man.

P.S.S-Mikey does indeed rock!

..the "Harajuku Barbie" gets melted.

Atleast I know I'm not alone in my dislike for Ms. Barbie herself.

Lauren showed me this today in APES, and all though I really can't lie because I did like that "Itty Bitty Piggy" freestyle, this girls verse was hard. I'm still debating wether she was really freestyling, but none the less it went hard.

Heres my deal with Nicki Minaj:

She is fake. She is a slwhore. She wouldn't be famous if everyone wasn't on Wayne and Drakes d. Besides the fact that I don't appreciate women perpetuating hyper sexual images for financial gain, I also can't stand the chick because she is a walking talking gimick. She is a pure product of the music industry, and people think its cool to like her because she was "underground". From what I have heard and seen about her I have gathered that she didn't used to be like that. She was acutaly a femal MC that was about something, and just changed herself to sell records. Whatever I know the chick could care less what I think about her, but all I have to say is get your ish together Onika (yes, I googled her ass...don't judge me)

P.S the ish she spits about is not even hot...have you heard that BFF song "would you like some rice with that"...wtf.

Flow Stoopid.

Diggy - Made you look Freestyle (Flow Stoopid) from Diggy Simmons on Vimeo.

I am feeling pretty sorry for JoJo Simmons right now. How you gonna get lyrically shitted on by your 14 y.o kid brother, dude. I remembered seeing that Diggy had a mixtape out on "The Clearance Aisle" and randomly decided to look it up today. I am currently in the process of downloading the mixtape as I type, but from the reviews I read, and the vids of I seen I gather that the kid is pretty dope. I guess he will be Rev. Runs...true successor...sorry JoJo.

Is it just me or has Diggys voice drastically changed...I wouldnt be able to tell that it was him if I didnt know who I was listening to. But anyways once I download I'll be back with my thoughts.