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...hey I just downloaded this little blogger buddy thing from windows website, and its what I am posting from as we speak. It seems quite nifty I like! lol...well todays been an interesting day...sucky but good at the same time. start my first day of work tmrw. Also have a project due for APES which is done but i still have to put together. I'm kinda in a mood right now, therefore I'm drowning it out with some Wale "Back to the Feature"...This is truly a good mixtape. Its has so many deminsions, and is truly a credit to hip hop...plus its making me feel quite nice right now...I was gonna do a smiley face right there but its dark now and I cant find the semi colon...soooo good night

...God's on my side

This has been an amazing week...and it's only friggin Tuesday.
For one thing I got a job yesterday. The nursing home DeBerry recommended me to gave me a freakin job. And right on time because I am one broke negro. I really need to pay for my cap and gown, and the kid needs a new mp3 player.

2nd a few minutes ago, my sisters friend asked me to write for her magazine. Not an online magazine, or a printer paper newsletter type thing, but an actual magazine. I'm not too sure if I will be getting paid, but I think I am! I think I am going to be writing about fashion, and if so this will give me the chance to build my resume...all I can say is wow

My senior year has been pretty major so far: got into my #1 pick school, got my cna, SGA, promoted to event planner in YNN, and on top of all that I got basically two jobs one where I'll be making major bank and practicing for my career in midwifery, and the other wear I'll be able to let the creative juices flow...man its all so very sick

i'm so glad these opportunities have come at this specific time because lately I have been having this feeling. I have been feeling like maybe I'll be a failure in life...that maybe I'll get to the end of my life and have nothing to be proud of. I see so many adults with careers where their basically just counting the days till retirement, and with such dreadfully boring and uneventful lives. I don't want that for myself when I'm older. I want to have a life I can be happy with. Now with all these new opportunities I feel like I am moving in a positive direction ( minus my laziness...yeah that needs to be worked on) this makes me excited for whats to come!

I spent Valentines with a bunch of chicks...

...and loved it! I had so much fun last night with Tan, Sheinetta, Gelly Bean, and Sharon. They acted as my Valentines for the year. Believe it or not Valentines day is my favorite holiday although I have never had a boyfriend, therefore I've never celebrated it with anyone. It's just adorable to see people in love. But we had lots of fun: We went to Chili's and ran into Jazzy Hill (she got into Princeton, the Princeton...WOW), and although we couldnt see a movie because Southpoint was so packed, we walked around and chilled, and later we went to Duke and got free ice cream. Although I couldnt get my praline pecans i still had so much fun! I tried to document the night with pictures but that didn't work out so well. We caught up on lots of drama. like how some of our middle school counterparts are in jail, while others pop pills now...shame And I cussed like a sailor and drove crazily, plus I had a tiny spat with the guy at the ice cream shop, and ran into some old co workers. Oh yeah and froze my butt off in netted stockings, high waist skirt, and chuck taylors ( we dressed up for each other, but I refused to wear heels to the mall, and embarrass myself.) Oh YEAH! and we had an incident with a very hott Iraninan boy who works at the Great Wraps restaurant...actually i'm pretty sure his parents own it. but any ways, he goes to Angelicas school and she wants to go to prom with him, but naturally didn't want to ask. so of course we along with some assistants from one of Tandrels counterparts we spotted, chatted him up and got his phone number for her. we think he might have g'd us because when we call and txt'd he didn't answer. All in all, a very fun and memorable night.

This is kind of a break up song...but i guess its still fitting of the holiday

...Rude Boy

Todays Ruminations aka Cella and her moods

today was a pretty decent day. I had so much fun with the kids at bright horizons. It's amazing how excited and happy little kids can be. I was a little leery of switching off infant room every other day, but I am glad because those kids are hilarious. It warmed my heart to see them get excited about giving out valentines, and see the new girl get acclimated to the new pre- school.

When I got back to school my mood took a slight turn, and got a little down again. This has been happening a lot this week, so I should probably just disregard it, but it is worrying me a tad. My mood swings are partially because of Chemistry, that class is stressing the shit out of me. I can barely stay awake, and I am completely unmotivated. YNN and student council, as well as preparing for college are other factors, but I realized today that the biggest one of all is just that I AM COMPLETELY OVER IT. Everything from gossip to drama, and unsupportive friends. All the disorginization and stupid clubs...the friggin' crowded hall ways, and the b.s adults try to force feed me. In a nutshell: high school. I am completely and utterly over HIGH SCHOOL.

It's nothing to shed tears over...I mean their are exactly 78 school day left to that faithful day of graduation. I'm not gonna lie...I probably will miss it. There were and definitely are good times. Laughter and memories and all that shit. But I guess high school just didn't give me what I needed. Not that it was supposed to...I mean it is just high school. Filled with immature man children and quitas. I guess I just find it severely messed up that I consider some of my teachers way better friends than some of the people who call themselves my best friends. In reality they are...my teacher friends are more supportive, honest, and honestly a lot more fun and all my level than tons of the people i have "befriended" cough cough. All in all I guess I've just lacked someone my age to talk to...someone I can be real with. I hope I find that at ECU.

I don't wanna hype college up and not get what I want out of it, but I hope I enjoy it a lot more than high school.

getting fly was only the beginning.

So I am probably super late on this but judging by the cover I'm sure it was super dope. Downloading it as I type. I dig 9th Wonder, not only because he's from Durham, but because the kid is talented. I dig Wale, not only because he is African, but because he is pretty epic. Now both of these kids on a mixtape together = major flyness. I swear I almost had a seizure when I saw this pic!
Well once again I should be studying so I'm gonna go do that, while I listen to this mixtape of course.

At the Library...I found more love for my country.

I am supposed to be studying but find myself side tracked with Youtube and Wale. In the recommended vids I saw this vid about Liberia. Its called "The Vice Guide To Travel Liberia". It is basically about the war in Liberia that went on. It was seriously hard to watch, it showed a side of Liberia that i was never truly introduced to because I wasn't raised there. It made me feel selfish for taking my life in America for granted when I have aunts, uncles, cousins, and even a parent who had to live thought that chaos. Even after all those feelings it made me feel a little bit more love for my Liberian heritage and my big crazy Liberian family. I realize that although its all well in great to have this swelling pride for being Liberian American, I need to educate myself more about it's history and the things that are taking place their now. For one thing I wasn't aware that Charles Taylor was on trial at the Hague right now, and I always thought that the story about Charles Taylor eating Doe was a myth. Any who it was really unsettling to watch, but I am glad that I got to know more about my country, and to see that their are natives and outside people who are trying to help rebuild what the civil war destroyed. I also liked it because I think Liberians have the most beautiful accents + that one guy reminded me of my Uncle Thomas.

Any who the whole thing made me decide to start the Zigbuo family blog...tentatively titled "Love on the Big Road" (cause Zigbuo means big road....get it..ha!)
I'll get it up tonight hopefully starting out with some pics from grandpas party, this vid, as well as a high light on someone in the family and an event calendar.
I'm mucho excited about it all...but i need to get back to studying for my APES test tomorrow, so all though its been real I bid you adieux.

I just found out who this girl, Kesh, was yesterday. Someone on Tumblr was debating the similarities and differences between her and Va$htie. They do have a few similarities, but none the less I really like them. Especially Kesh. They are both renaissance women, leaving in big cities, handling their b.i and finding inspiration for their art.

Reading Kesh's blog makes me feel like I can be a succesful Midwife, a community activist, and start my fashion line. People say it's inpossible, but I don't think so. I can do it and these girls prove it. Plus they both have sick style. Kesh has this kinda girly vintage thing going on and Va$ht has this couture tomboy thing, which I love. They are both super fly, and I think I have a mixture of their styles.

Overall they inspire me...just in case you were wondering what the purpose of this post it.