there are a lot of things I can admit about myself:
i dont really think im beautiful, at least not most of the time.
im constantly scared that Im destined to waist all my potential.
i procrastinate like a motherfucker.
my body image is not that great.
i am envious of a lot of other people.
im lazy.
im awkward.
i often times feel inadequate.
im afraid Im gonna go to hell.
im afraid people dont like me.
im a push over.
and ive never been kissed.

is it courageous that I can admit these things, even if only to myself most of the time. I don't really know, but I'd kinda like to hope so.
Of all these things, the one thing that bothers me the most is that I although I may be able to admit them, I don't really have the courage to change them. I try, I get "motivated", but nothing comes into fruition. It took me like forever just to write this blog. I want to change, but...