today was a pretty decent day. I had so much fun with the kids at bright horizons. It's amazing how excited and happy little kids can be. I was a little leery of switching off infant room every other day, but I am glad because those kids are hilarious. It warmed my heart to see them get excited about giving out valentines, and see the new girl get acclimated to the new pre- school.
When I got back to school my mood took a slight turn, and got a little down again. This has been happening a lot this week, so I should probably just disregard it, but it is worrying me a tad. My mood swings are partially because of Chemistry, that class is stressing the shit out of me. I can barely stay awake, and I am completely unmotivated. YNN and student council, as well as preparing for college are other factors, but I realized today that the biggest one of all is just that I AM COMPLETELY OVER IT. Everything from gossip to drama, and unsupportive friends. All the disorginization and stupid clubs...the friggin' crowded hall ways, and the b.s adults try to force feed me. In a nutshell: high school. I am completely and utterly over HIGH SCHOOL.
It's nothing to shed tears over...I mean their are exactly 78 school day left to that faithful day of graduation. I'm not gonna lie...I probably will miss it. There were and definitely are good times. Laughter and memories and all that shit. But I guess high school just didn't give me what I needed. Not that it was supposed to...I mean it is just high school. Filled with immature man children and quitas. I guess I just find it severely messed up that I consider some of my teachers way better friends than some of the people who call themselves my best friends. In reality they are...my teacher friends are more supportive, honest, and honestly a lot more fun and all my level than tons of the people i have "befriended" cough cough. All in all I guess I've just lacked someone my age to talk to...someone I can be real with. I hope I find that at ECU.
I don't wanna hype college up and not get what I want out of it, but I hope I enjoy it a lot more than high school.
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